So today was Haven's first day of school. He is going up to the Partnership school at ISU while I finish my last semester. They have the best program.
I have known for a while that Haven would have to go to daycare this semester. It breaks my heart to realize that someone else gets to spend the day with my happy little boy while I work and sit through pointless classes. For the Baby U Club I did a huge project on the daycares available in Pocatello. Luckily, and at the last minute, a spot opened for us at the ISu Parntership School. They are located up in the education department and all of the teachers are childhood education majors. Its the only fully accredited school in Poky too. So you would think that I would rest assured that he will be well taken care of. And he is. But I couldn't even sleep last night I was so worried about the idea of putting my baby in daycare. I tossed and turned. I think I checked on him at least twice (of all the nights for him to actually sleep through the night).
When we showed up this morning, he got all excited at the new toys and the cute little girl sitting on the floor. The second I set him down he was off crawling after her and laughing at himself in the mirror. I signed him in and slipped out. Then I almost started crying. Talk about attatchment issues. It was so hard. Its one thing to drop him off with my mom or dad, but its hard to leave him with complete strangers no matter what their education. I am sure I will get use to this, and one day I will be glad that I finished my education. But for now, I miss my baby.
